Let's Have At Her: Warning this is a Rant!

Omg Internet!

I am on the verge of having a complete and utter meltdown at this point in time. So to relieve some of the stress that I have been enduring I must imprint this anger onto this blog page.

Firstly and fairly it is clearly me who has let this stress leech onto me, I know.

Since I did not allow myself a decent amount of study time for each of my courses (one day is NOT enough), I have been under a severe amount of stress and used ridiculously unorganized study habits.

Because of this absolutely idiotic pattern that I continue to use again and again, I have most definitely failed an entire flab-dabbin (I am going to not swear but instead use substitutes to keep my anger levels as low as possible) course and 4 months of my life which ultimately would have helped me save future time since this course (Anatomy Biology) will be useful to the field I wish to pursue.

Secondly, this is what I think of exams, holidays, and scheduling:
WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU HAVE EXAMS JUST DAYS BEFORE A GIGUNDO HOLIDAY CELEBRATED A MASS AMOUNT OF PEOPLE IN YOUR COUNTRY AND PLACE THE DATE OF THE EXAM ON A FLIP-FLAPPIN' WEEKEND AT 8:30 IN THE FRACK-TACKIN' MORNING WHEN THERE ARE SOME GOD FORSAKEN PEOPLE WHO LIVE AN HOUR AWAY FROM YOUR GOSH DARNED INSTITUTION?!?!?!?!?

But enough of the ALL caps.

This is how my week went:

Monday
-6:30 drive brother to work
-7:50 get edible items from grocery store
-10:00 start work
-18:00 get off work
-21:30 go to bed

Tuesday
-6:30 drive brother to work
-7:50 get breakfast from grocery store
-8:15 begin studying for Exam A
-17:00 pick brother up from work
-18:15 eat and get back to studying
-23:45 give up on studying and go to bed

Wednesday
-6:30 drive brother to work
-7:50 get orange juice from grocery store because of being ridiculously sick (just great)
-8:15 eat breakfast and study for Exam C
-16:00 pick brother up from work
-17:15 eat and get back to studying
-17:45 give up on studying
-21:00 go to bed

Thursday
-6:30 drive brother to work
-8:30 shower and go to school for Exam A
-13:30 begin Exam A
-15:30 leave school go straight to work
-17:00 begin work
-21:30 finish work go home
-22:00 go to bed

Friday
-6:30 drive brother to work
-8:30 realize that not enough studying was done for Exam C; ignore Exam B (STUPIDLY!)
-13:20 panic attack and tears over not enough study time
-15:00 pick up brother get something to eat
-16:20 colitis acts up over fast food + panic attack, stuck in traffic = BAD FLAPPIN' NEWS!
-17:15 study for Exam B; panicking
-20:00 mom arrives and distracts
-20:45 mom leaves, brother distracts
-22:00 go to bed

Saturday
-6:00 go to school
-8:30 begin Exam B
-9:20 exit Exam B --> cry because over half the questions were not answered and failing exam = failing course
-9:35 phone mom and cry some more
-10:30 eat food figure out how to fix school stuff
-11:00 begin studying for Exam C w/ classmates
-13:30 begin Exam C
-14:40 complete Exam C; feels confident; goes to mall to finish X-mas shopping
-16:00 gets back to brother's place; gets stuff together; family picks up and goes home
-17:00 finally home and wraps presents
-18:30 showers goes to bf's house
-20:30 goes to theatre to see Avatar w/ bf and his family

Sunday
-1:00 gets home from movie
-1:30 sleeps
-10:45 wakes up and eats
-11: 50 begins studying for Exam D
-20:20 leaves for brother's place
-20:50 arrives at brother's place, no key, can't get inside; phone not being answered either
-21:11 tries to find ice rink that brother is at = no luck
-21:30 goes back to place still no one there
-21:40 goes home
-22:33 dieing inside right friggin' now

And tomorrow I get to wake up UBER early because I have another 8:30 exam.... lucky friggin' me and at 1 o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow I get to work till 9:30pm.

I have a very bad feeling about the rest of this week because I will be working up until X-mas and I am sure that I will get my first write up because if ANY customer gives me lip, talks me down, is rude to me in any direct or indirect way I WILL react and I WON'T be nice about it!

Anyways, I should sleep because I'm going to school at 6 tomorrow morning.

Here's some hope for me that I won't panic attack again and that my colitis will not react to the panic attack because I won't be able to handle that.

Have a sleep-filled night, lovely dreams, and let's hope that I'll survive the rest of this dreadful week. :(
Happy Holidays